August 28, 2019


Time flies when youre sleeping all day. I havent updated in a while because I have had nothing to add (yeah,lets go with that.) but I plan on updating the scary story page.

I also made a typo in my password logging in and got the anxiety sweats.

(Im on mobile so please excuse the typos )


Okie dokie, I'm on pc it's actual journal time.

I've been pretty much on my own the whole summer and have the house to myself. Unfortuantely I also have literally nothing to do.

My goddamn tablet pen broke, I don't know how. It still works but it's on it's last legs so I have to get a new one. It's a pain in the ass. An even bigger pain in the ass is my glasses broke too, specifically my favourite pair. The lense popped out. I don't know what demon entered my life and decided to breakmy shit but it can fuck off.

In better news I'm planning on entering the Maturity Explained J-Horror Jam. I'm really excited and it's taking everything in my power to not make the whole game now. (It's in Rpg Maker VX Ace because it's the only engine I know how to use...)

I did a little bit, mostly setup to get the annoying bit out of the way.
I definately got a little carried away...

August 5, 2019


I have no sleep schedule and just watch videos on my phone when i'm awake. I'm not dead yet I just have no motivation.

tbh whenever I wake up my first thought is "god damn it now I have to do something"

(i never do)

Music today →

July 29, 2019



It was small, long, and brown iwth leopard spots. I didn't get to pet it because it ran away (I saw it hop a fence)

My dad was nice enough to get me a thing of whipped cream.

July 22, 2019


I'm finaaly back home!

I had breakfast of dino egg oatmeal and a cup of chamomille tea.

I'm exausted ( ´ ▽ ` )ノ

July 19, 2019


So, I got really sick last night.

I woke up at around noon feeling really really ill, decided to go back to bed. When i woke up again it was 10PM. I still have a fever I think.

Not doin' so hot. Not at all.

July 16, 2019


I wish it rained more. It rained last night but I didn't hear it.

In other news I'm really selfconcious of my music taste.



It was fine and flew away but holy SHIT.

July 11, 2019


I went kayaking. I haven't been in years. It went well but it's too rough so I had to comme back in.

July 10, 2019


I tried to get my sleep schedule in sync a few days ago, and then insomnia happened and.... nope. Still sleeping all day

I decided to stay at my cottage for another week. I felt it at the time but now I'm not so sure. Too late now

I don't really have any thing to report tbh. I should make a Scent Star shrine.


I just got shit cause i drank 90% of a bottle of wine. I didn't even get drunk.

edit: and now because i didn't take my iron supliment.

July 4, 2019


Sup, I'm still alive.

I went swimming the other day. I misjudged the distance of a rock and bashed my arm against it. First rock related injurt of the year acheived.

I haven't really been doing much but I have been blessed with alcohol. I just wanna play minecraft honestly.

Trip picks so far are uneventful I might post those when i get back in the city idk.

June 29, 2019


I'm going on a trip today so I may be missing in action. (the joke is i'm always missing in action)

I might take pictures and make a page if I have any cool ones.

It's been several days and Jerry hasn't sprouted. Can i get Fs in chat?


I'm leaving soon. I have a big ass scar on my upper arm i'm embarassed about and my tshirt is just BARELY too short to cover it. Pray for me.

June 23, 2019



June 22, 2019


I found a sprout in my sink drain. I think it's from a bird seed. I planted it.

I named him Jerry. Good luck Jerry!

June 17, 2019


I actually did something productive today its a miracle lol.

I actually started writing some poetry for the hell of it the other day. I'm reluctant to call them poems tbh

But honestly "what is poetry" is a question with too many answers. So like... lets not.

Heres a guy making a chocolate guillotine. Not related to anything but that's cool beans.

June 15, 2019


Everything is cool. It is fine and evey fiber of my being is calm and definately not irrational anxiety.

I especially don't think existance was a mistake.

June 14, 2019


I may or may not have coaxed a friend into making a neocities. I'm not saying you should go check them out but...

I'm totally saying you should go check them out.

June 12, 2019


I've been thinking about Animal Crossing a lot lately, more so than usual. I seem to remember a new leaf town in the dream suite that was hacked to be broken as hell. I wonder if it was reuploaded. I wish i remembered the name.

Shout out to Heart (hearted@neocities) for being nice enough to give me a flashy flower sign and some peaches the other day btw. ;;u;;/

June, 2, 2019

Happy pride month, yo!

May 31, 2019


[chugs white monster energy] YEAH WE DOIN' THIS SHIT!!!!!!!
i dont know what we're doing, actuallly.

Also i kicked the pillow 10 times last night to do the dream thing and I didnt have a spooky one. I feel jipped.




I made a page where I basically told my story and poured my heart out then like, had anxiety over it maybe 10 minutes after it went live. F.

May 27, 2019


I live

When I woke up I remembered my dream in vivid detail but didn't write it down right away. I dont remember it now. I'm so upset.

May 24, 2019


Yoo i must be preally bad at paying attention because I just looked up and there's.... a box of matches on my bed?

These aren't mine?? Who left these????????


It's only been an hour but my alergies are SHIT this year. I haven had this much of an issue, if at all in years. My face feels like it's falling off send help.


This specific video keeps playing on loop in my head.

May 22, 2019


Neocities pissed itself earlier today and I was gonna write something earlier but... didn't for some reason?

We now return to out regular programming.

In other news my mouse has decided to have two extra functions, don't click at all, and always click twice. I sure do love struggling to highlight text because my cheap chunk of plastic does what it wants :D

It's been doing it for a couple of days and it's starting to bother me lol. I know it's the mouse too because my pen display is fine.

Also, side note, I'm probably only gonna be writing about nice or interesting things here. I'm not comfortable being negative so publically on the interwebs. Just know that my life is as shitty as everyone else's lol.

May 20, 2019


Now a journal. My days and nights are turned around again. Nothing else to report.